Sometimes a spade is a spade no matter how much you want it to be something else.
Last week I became public with my practice of a weekly tarot reading. My interpretations of the the cards tend to be more neutral to positive. There are too many readers who still use the \whole “there is a curse placed on you by…” to rope people into spell services they don’t need or are always prophets of doom.
Paradigm shifts are tricky and messy. Part of my own lessons from The Hermit were lots of alone time as normal, dealing with the expected loss of a pet in a different, less emotional way, and dealing with the positive of lots of mail from my biological family including my estranged father.
How does the tower truly fit into a paradigm shift for me?
I am reevaluating how I respond to things. I am generally a very vocal emotional person and it is exhausting at times. I am learning to be less reactive in a lot of ways. I still had difficulties late into the night with an unexpected emotional downswing but I am choosing to take a longer pause before I react to the emotion and as Pema Chodron suggests choosing to do something different. There was a combination of usual texts but mostly it was just being really curious. The curiously has led me to question how much I sugar coat information to lessen the blow to others and still have their approval. I think I would rather be known for being less perky about prophetic information and just deliver it and trust that I will still have favor with those I need favor from.
The other paradigm shift I am experiencing is not fighting so much over situations I cannot change. Living and internalizing the serenity prayer vs just saying it. I can hear my elder Rosanna asking why do divination then? For myself being a diviner is not just about finding out about the future but analysing how our behaviors and beliefs influence it and what if anything we can do about it. So….. cards will be drawn tomorrow. For now it is time for my true crime shows and cuddles with the cat.
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